Goodness, lately it seems like I’ve been experiences all of these “ah-ha” life moments. I sit back and think I’m starting to figure things out, and realize quickly that I’m not. I a recurring thought that I am surrounded by so many amazing people, but I never sit back and think to include myself in that “amazing” category. We tend to give the best advice to others, but never follow our own. So I decided to write a love letter about everything I’ve wanted to tell the person that I should be taking care of the most, myself. Many of these thoughts are things that I wish I would tell some of the people in my life, as well as myself. If you only knew the people who I’m blessed to call friends. I’m thankful, that’s all I can say. Well, here goes nothing…
Who was the last person that called you that? Here’s what I want you to do, wake up every morning and say it to yourself. Maybe one day you’ll start to believe it. You don’t need affirmation from anyone else. If you accept you as you are now, no one will ever be able to break your confidence again! Love yourself first, laugh, be wild and carefree. You’ll start to shine and you’ll become this light that attracts all aspects of positivity. Embrace it, because you deserve to be happy even if you think you don’t. I know you weren’t expecting to make it to this point in your life. Yes, there was that broken phase. Part of you felt that those years you spent crying every other day had taken their toll on your soul. But you are a rock, you put on a brave face for the world.
No one knew your secrets, no one knew you were unhappy. Fake it ’til you make it, that was the anthem of your life. Your struggle tore you down, and you put up walls to protect your well-being. I know the reason you are so guarded is because you gave so much of yourself up to someone else. I mean, you let them have it all, and they ripped it away from you. That’s something you’ll never get back. The person you were before does not exist anymore. But you become a slightly altered version of yourself, and it’s up to you to dictate if the past is going to interfere with the future. It only takes one person to screw you up, not just you, that person messes up things for any others you may date in the future as well. But guess what? You are still here! Perfectly broken, yet you’ve managed to put the pieces back together quite nicely.
The strong, beautiful person I see now is truly a blessing that cannot be duplicated. Constantly smiling and laughing so loud that it becomes contagious, it’s a stunning thing to watch. One day you’ll be ready to give your all to someone again. You may stumble or even fall down a few more times before you find your “soul mate.” Don’t give up, and don’t hold back. That will just prohibit you from fully experiencing what it’s like to truly be loved by another person. When you find the person you were meant to be with it will be intoxicating. Don’t fight it, fight for it, show them how you do it. You are someone who loves unconditionally, honestly, and passionately. Show them that, and when it’s returned don’t question it. Continue your path and enjoy the ride. I can’t wait to see what’s in store.
Until next time…